Wednesday, December 16, 2009

God is righteous in strength. I desperately need His strength. This valley I have been called to walk in is HUGE. I know God knows my every emotion. I ask God "Why?" I have discovered you can question God. If God can't handle my questions, then He is NOT God. God asssures me that He has my family in His hands. Psalm 34:17-19 "The righteous cry and the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near for the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord delivers them out of them all." It is ok to question God, but I am learning something else about spiritual warfare. God and satan will try to use the same event in a person's life, one for good, one for evil. Both want to be glorified. My response determines which receives the glory. God is righteous, He will give me strength. It's hard for me to believe that some people go through life's trials without God, how do they do it? Even in the midst of this raging storm I am in, He is faithful, He is just, He is my strength, my hope, my peace. I trust Him, I rely on His supernatural strenght. Psalm 23:1 " The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want." Because the Lord is who He is, my Shepherd, He supplies every need I have, even before I know that need. He meets my spiritual needs, at times I feel as though I am all alone, but when I grow still and quiet in the valley, I can hear His footsteps. It's His presence that guides and strengthens my spiritual life. I have His word and through my prayers He lifts me from my despair and places me on solid ground again and again. He meets my physical needs, when I ask for peace He gives me peace and rest. He is the great physicain. He meets my physical needs, so many times since the accident, I have wanted my mother to be here on this earth, how selfish of me to want her to leave her heavenly home to come back to this place. But I have wanted her here, so I could crawl into her lap and have her to put her arms around me and hold me, comfort me. I know that is physically impossible, but emotionally I needed it. But when I ask for comfort to come, my Heavenly Father picks me up and does just that, He wraps His everlasting arms around me and comforts me. He meets my every need. I know that God knows that I am going through a time of trial, despair and discoragement. The storm I am in at times seems too powerful and one I am afraid, I cannot overcome, but I know He is real and righteous, and relevant, and He meets my needs and I turn to Him and I trust Him to be who He is, the faithful Creator who will NOT allow destruction to come to me, but will make me an overcomer. On this journey of faith He has taught me how to trust Him. With every new day, I need assurance of His presence, He is more than ready to supply me with evidence that He is at work in my life. I know I can NOT go through this on my own, I need Him, every hour, I need Him! I also know I have tremendous christian friends and family that are standing in the gap for me and my family. I have so many people praying for my family, people that more than likely, I will never know this side of heaven, but when we get to heaven, I will know them and they will know me. That's exciting! I have a vision of my mother and daddy walking all over heaven letting every one know that Brayden, Kenadi, and Logan and the little babies of Hannah and Jeremy's that never made it to be born on earth are their grand children. Heaven holds many treasures for me! I know God will restore my family, he promised! I know His time is NOT my time! Lord, I need help on that one! I know He loves me! I know He wants what's best for me! I know that all things work for the good of those that love Him. Yes, Lord, I will praise you in this storm! Yes, Lord, I love you!

41 comments:

  1. Terri,
    You recently left a comment on my Loving Laynee blog. I'm so sorry that this had to happen to you, that God chose your swimming pool as the means to bring Brayden and Kenadi home to Him. The pain and torture of living with such memories is unbearable at times. Like you, I cannot begin to understand His ways but I know that He is good. Praying that you can find comfort in the knowledge that He is Jehovah Rophe, the Lord who Heals.
    Karol

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  2. Just wanted to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas. I'm still thinking of and praying for your family daily. ((HUGS)) from VA!

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  3. 我們不是因為快樂而歌唱,而是唱歌使我們快樂..................................................

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  4. 失去金錢的人,失去很多;失去朋友的人,失去更多;失去信心的人,失去所有。.................................................................

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  5. 一個人的價值,應該看他貢獻了什麼,而不是他取得了什麼............................................................

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  6. 聰明人之所以不會成功,是因為他們缺乏了堅忍的毅力。.................................................

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  7. 死亡是悲哀的,但活得不快樂更悲哀。. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

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  8. Terri,
    I thought of you tonight and wanted to let you know that I think of you and pray often. Hope you are doing well and standing strong against the storms

    Karol, Laynee's mommy

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